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“‘Cause you’re free

To do what you want to do

You’ve got to live your life

Do what you want to do.“

Free ~ Ultra Nate

Well! How you doing? I didn’t realise but it’s been almost eight months since I last posted a blog! Seasons have come and gone, and ain’t we feeling it!🥶 So much has happened, and I’ll get around to breaking that down, but there’s thankhfully one thing that’s continued to flow, and that’s the peace that I found nearly 2 years ago.

I’m nearly done sorting through and filing away those receipts I spoke of in Spiritual Accountancy, and unsurprisingly I’ve noticed that there is one pile stacked considerably higher than the others.

It comes under the category of Negative Time Spent, consisting of pain felt, tears shed, hate fuelled and energy wasted. So that’s what I’ve spent these months doing. Attempting to focus on what I’ve learned and where I am now.*

I’ve had a dose of the Ahhhs – Reflection, Recharging, Releasing, and a case of the Re-Re’s! – Reevaluating, Reviewing, Reordering, Readjusting, REALising, and finally getting Ready to Receive and Reap the Rewards!💫

I’d reached a point in my life where I knew I had to do something before my negative emotions ate away at me. Blogging helped to release a lot of it, but a part of me couldn’t let go of the hate and bitterness – and I fully acknowledge I had an extremely hard time with forgiveness. 

Had. It feels good to write that word, because it truly is in the past tense. But how did I manage to get here? Well, I told you I had a magical experience, but I didn’t really delve into what it was. The main reason for this is because it was one that I couldn’t put into words, and truthfully speaking, I still don’t possess the vocabulary to express it to you fully. 

Another reason is that we live in a society that struggles to let go of what we’ve been programmed to believe, and are quick to judge without knowing or attempting to understand the facts. We accept what the powers that be say and don’t question anywhere near enough as we should. I’ve always known things were mucked up, but for me my experience lifted that veil of sheer organza that blurred the view and had me distracted, and brought forth the full 8K UHD clarity on many levels. 

It started with me stepping outside of the box and following my intuition; and it’s been one of, if not thee best decision I’ve ever made to date in regard to my own, personal wellbeing – and I say that with full DD chest! Believe it or not, alongside the fuckeries, I have managed to incorporate some wonderful experiences throughout my lifetime, but this one was different.💫

If you’ve ever debated doing something outside the norm but are apprehensive about it, take my advice and go on and do it. Fuck it. If you don’t like it at least you’ve tried and can easily step back into what you know, but it might just be the key to letting go!

I was invited to go to a retreat, and after declining the offer on several other occasions, I decided to say yes. It’s said that the universe will make it so uncomfortable for you at points in your life that you’ll have no choice but to make moves; and I felt it with every blow that had come in my direction.

I needed space to breathe and it sounded ideal. It was based in the lofty, lusciously green hills of Wales, and I knew no one apart from my nephew who runs the retreat. I went with an open heart and mind, and had some wonderful holistic experiences and met some beautiful people. 

Upon that I chose a path of peace and have never looked back. That’s not to say I wasn’t already on that path, I just got me a bit distracted; but a real shift was made that weekend, in ways that you couldn’t imagine, and it literally opened my eyes and set me free.

I know at this point some of you are watching me with full bombastic side eye, but hear me out!😂

I can honestly put finding the final piece of my puzzle down to that retreat. I’m not saying it will work that way for all, but so far it’s had only positive impacts on those I know. For me it bought home how connected we are and how important it is to work on your whole self – WHOLE-LISTICALLY – the mental, physical, spiritual and emotional. It all works hand in hand. It also highlighted how needed this type of living is. 

If I’m lucky enough, I’ll be 50 years old in a couple of weeks. After all of the bullshit I’ve endured so far, I’ve come to the conclusion that I’ve more than earned my right to make informed choices on how I live what’s left of my life and what I do to my body – especially as a cancer/chemo survivor. 

I believe one day we’re gonna look back in horror at the treatment of cancer and other illnesses as we do when we see they used to encourage pregnant women to smoke. We’ve already seen the benefits in CBD, and there are extremely positive clinical trials in the use of psilocybin to combat a range of mental health disorders; but I’m not waiting for them to catch up.

Despite decades Cancer Research has got us from a 1/5, to a 1/2 ratio. I’m not the best at math, but I know that adds up to their type of research not working as well as it could.

I’m advocating for all, but especially for those who have had to undergo toxic medical treatment and procedures, to receive a free pass to seek holistic treatments and therapies to counterbalance their effects; if they so choose. I know, sounds comical right?

Well it’s a bigger joke believing mushrooms and cannabis are more damaging to you and deserve to be prohibited. It’s actually wild that in big 2024 I’m calling for us to be allowed to freely partake in what nature provides.

Please don’t be fooled by what the powers that be feed you. I say do your own research and make informed decisions on what’s best for you. I’ve made mine.

That’s not to say that cancer or some other nasty won’t come calling once more, but I’ve tried it their way. I don’t want something that harms as much as it heals. It was damn harsh and I’d prefer not to experience it again if it’s all the same. So why should I be vilified for wanting to go down a natural path they don’t want to? 

It’s a rhetorical question, I don’t want or need an answer. I’m good. In fact I’m better than I’ve ever felt on a whole thankhs to being provided with a space to find me; which is an even bigger blessing now as with recent events happening, the world looks like it’s going to hell in a handcart!

I’ve paid my price, found my peace, and I’m filing this receipt away. I’ve made lifestyle choices and changes to make me feel comfortable enough and at ease when my time to leave this Earth comes – however and whenever that may be.✨

Condolences to The Duhaney Family on the passing of your Queen, and R.I.P to all those who have lost their lives this week.

STOP THE GENOCIDE! Continuing to send love to all of the nations suffering from some sort of atrocity.

*I realise to some my absence and lack of communication may look like I’m not bothered about folk or don’t care, believe me I do, but I still have shit going on; I’m still doing the work, just better equipped to handle it!

Big love and the most amount of respect to my nephew, Josh, for your generosity and perseverance!😂, and the whole Good Trauma Tribe. I feel truly blessed to know and work with you all. Let’s continue to get the work done!💫

Do You, But Do Your Research Too! Stay Blessed & #CelebrateLife

“When I think of where I’m coming from

Looking back at where the journey began

I really haffi say that I’m strong, I’m strong

All praises to the most High One

Look at where I’m coming from

Looking back at where the journey began

I really haffi say that I’m strong, I’m strong

All praises to the most High One…”

Where I’m Coming From ~ Lila Iké

A few weeks ago I wrote about my love/hate relationship with social media, and this week I was reminded of one of the reasons why I love it. Facebook has a function where they’ll post memories of things you’d posted on that day from years past, and this month’s reminders so far has been a shining example of love and exactly how far I’ve come.

I told y’all I’m thee keeper of receipts! Please believe me when I tell you I kept every email, text, voicemail and diaries to boot! Hence the disclaimers! Ya girl was READY and waiting for them to slip and try me once I really got going. #BringItCome

One memory to re-emerge I remember well! It was days after mum died and I’d had to deal with family and their fuckery, and I was very angry, upset and about to fire shots. I spoke to a couple of people about it and noticed this; some “friends” will goad you whilst others attempt to guide you. You need to focus and respect the difference. One will have you more up in your feelings and the other will allow you to acknowledge and deal with them.

I chose guidance from the light that was Ms Christina Brooks-Abraham, and put up a post stating as much. I wasn’t where I am now though, so there was a little dig at the end – just to let them know they weren’t forgiven, just allowed – for now!😂

There were a few more angry posts with me slinging expletives left, right and centre. I’m sure I even questioned what the collective noun of cunts was at one point.*🤣 I can look back now and see what a waste of real energy it was, but at the time it felt good to get it out, and it’s part and parcel of what I had to go through to get here.

Two more posts to pop up were one I was tagged in by Tara Bailey, celebrating women and asking to build each other up instead of tearing us apart, and the other post had a response from the fluffiest of fluffies, Ms Cotton Candy, my beautiful cousin Janel.

All of the above Queens have now passed over to the other side, so to have these reminders is a blessing. I’m doing my own Spiritual Accountancy course and so far it’s working wonders. I’ve nearly archived the receipts of the negatives and I’m building another collection, the NuDawn Love Collective. Collective power based in love, great energy and good vibes. These are the kinda things I want to hold onto.

When I look at where I’m coming from I will applaud myself all day, every day for getting here. The ride was wild but necessary and I’m beyond grateful to be seeing and feeling the way I do. The only wild life I’m experiencing is the one nature provides, not people, ego, greed and circumstance. It’s a great place to be and I’m feeling free. No ‘woe is me’, it’s ‘Woah! It’s Me!🤩

R.I.P to all those who have lost their lives this week

Continue to rest in paradise and shine your light from above Queens Tina, Tara and Janel.🙏🏾😍

STOP THE GENOCIDE! Continuing to send love to Palestine, Congo, Lebanon, Uyghur, Syria, Sudan and all of the other nations suffering some sort of atrocity.🖤💚

*I think we settled on bunch, but I could be wrong!😂

Check What Receipts You Keep! Stay Blessed & #CelebrateLife

“Blessed to have another moment

Some more time spent

Some more minds to get into

Blessed to have another daydream

Another maybe

Yeah…”

Blessed 2 Have ~ Floetry

I was fortunate enough to celebrate my 49th Earthday a few weeks back, and thankhs to The Mr, it was one of the most beautifully peaceful days I’ve ever had the pleasure of experiencing. 

It was spent exploring the Atlas Mountains in Marrakech, with glorious sunshine and beautiful people. In our efforts to find a munch we almost drove past a modest sign outside of an ordinary looking wooden gate, but our companion thought the name rang a bell so we drove up to it to be greeted by a friendly face enquiring what it was we needed. 

We waited at the gate whilst he called someone who could help us, and a few minutes later we were greeted by another friendly face who asked if we had a reservation. At this point I still wasn’t exactly sure what this place was but we said that we didn’t and he told us that it was fine and they’d accommodate us, then asked us to pull into a parking space outside the front of the building.

I assumed it was a restaurant until we stepped out of the car and made our way into the foyer and our greeter informed us of what they actually offer, which was one of the most stunning olive garden retreats I’ve ever seen🤩…ok, the only stunning olive garden retreat I’ve ever seen – but it was honestly breathtaking.*

As I soaked in my surroundings I felt truly blessed to be. I had three of the best things in life with me – breath, love and sunshine. I’m a woman of little wants and needs and that there was me to a tee! I could have sat there a lot longer than we did and I will most definitely be going back, higher power willing.🙏🏾

When I got home, as I find myself doing a lot lately, I reflected on the time I’d had and the wonderful way the world works with hidden surprises and the power of connection. All it takes is patience and observation. I’ve had time to master both recently and a few things keep presenting themselves that confirms what my soul keeps on telling me.

Yes, I’m probably repeating myself when I say I have a love hate relationship with social media, but I do. I love the ability to share with loved ones far and wide and the wealth of knowledge and information it can provide, but, and hear me out, I don’t like people; not ALL people, but ‘People’ people.

‘People’ is an old Caribbean term for a person or group who are an annoyance on varying levels in some way and there’s waaay too many out there for me to contend with and maintain my peace. I’ve been urged to do more in regards of digital marketing and pushing my blogs and impending podcasts and honestly, it just depresses me.😩😅 

I have tried, albeit not too hard, but I don’t have a desire to sell myself and my soul in the process. I know the work has to be done but I’m determined to find a way that sits well with me. I’m at capacity with the amount of time I spend online as it is. Fuck a reel! Respectfully.🙏🏾

Money has to be made and bills paid, but the things we put ourselves and others through to get it can be just plain wild!

Without getting into it too deeply, a while ago I reached out to a couple of well known names to literally just discuss a few projects I was thinking of and to get a little advice. They weren’t complete strangers to me, and I got a response back to say they’d be in touch soon. Now, it’s possible that we have different definitions of the word soon, but I done been through 3 seasons waiting and the fresh buds preparing themselves to come through will not be waiting to be nourished by them!🌝🍂❄️🌱

I’ve seen what drives and motivates these people and, even for the ones who like to think they are keeping it real, it’s all about the money, honey! If it ain’t making you some you’re making sure it can’t block that flow, joe! And good for you! If that’s what makes you happy I’m happy for you. We’re all human and have our desires and requirements, but because these people have made a name for themselves we tend to forget that.

It’s usually the little people that get them to the heights they dream of, but once they’re there you realise how little to them you indeed are. But it’s all good. It’s been an old tale and will continue on. Ain’t no bigger game than the quest for fortune and fame. And these players be playing! 

I’d prefer not to, and if it means I miss out on a certain type of revenue I’m good with that. I’ve never been driven by money. I always knew I wanted to write and share my life and thoughts in the hope it would resonate with some and possibly help others know that we’re all going through some type of shit! 

And boy did I have a heap to offload! It’s been a much needed outlet. If it’s meant to make me money I have faith that it will, but it’s already performed it’s task for me so that’ll be a bonus.✨

I’ve always appreciated my blessings but now I see each and every one clearly. Pay attention. Immense beauty and worth can lie behind the ordinary. I’ve had blessed days and the best days with ordinary people with an extraordinary light – the type money can’t buy. Not all that glitters is gold. Look for the glimmers.💫

R.I.P Benjamin Zephaniah, an all round creative genius and King of keeping it real. You will be missed but your spirit and legacy shall live on.

R.I.P Andre Braugher, another talented brother gaining his wings with a legacy in tact. Condolences to both families and rest easy Kings.🙏🏾

R.I.P to all those who have lost their lives this week.

Still standing in patience and observation so y’all are gonna have to wait with me! #PodcastsPending😂

*Olinto I’ll be seeing you soon; and there won’t be 3 seasons in between!😍😂

Patience And Observation, Stay Blessed & #CelebrateLife

“I’m a little wiser, baby

I’m a little kinder, baby

After all these years it’s time I let you know

See, I learned some things, my baby

Finally spread my wings to save me

Yes, I lost myself, that’s why I had to go

Then the light came up, my baby

Right after I forgave me

And I prayed so hard, I thought I’d lose my mind

I’m a little stronger, baby

Took a little longer, maybe

Tell my younger self to enjoy the ride…”

Rose In The Dark ~ Cleo Sol

At the end of last year I made a conscious decision to tighten my boundaries when it came to loving on certain folk. I would constantly be the one making contact with no response for weeks, sometimes months, if at all. I still had/have love for them, but I was done wasting my energy. I made it clear in a message and let things be. The door will always be open but they’ll have to find their own way to it and knock instead of me holding it open and catching breeze!

I know I’ve said it before, but it’s crazy the things we do and put ourselves through for love – or our perception of what love is anyway. Throughout my years of personal experience I can testify that that pathway can be a rocky one but honestly, it’s not meant to be.

There are many types of love to be found. I have plenty of love to give but not everyone gets the same type. I’m not gonna love on my friend the way I love on my man; those distinctions are clear enough to comprehend, but it tends to get a bit fuzzy when it comes to setting those boundaries that surround certain entrances to your heart. Remember there are many ways in. If one door closes you’ve got options. Find the love where it flows freely until that door opens up again.

It all starts with thyself. Once you know the score and you’ve got you covered that cold breeze of rejection will be replaced by a warm glow and you’ll manage to avoid the majority of the potholes and debris. Naturally we’ll all encounter a little heartache at some point in time – for some of us more often than not – but hopefully you’ll realise that the ache is only a fraction of the heart’s capacity.

If some people can’t appreciate you or acknowledge your worth it’s their loss not yours. It’s a lesson I’ve learnt but I confess to still having my moments of feeling less than in certain peoples opinion*, but they are only fleeting. I will never allow anyone to dim my shine. The attention I’m missing from them can be and has been made up tenfold by loving on me.**

I know it sounds easier said than done but I promise you it’s worth the effort.

STOP THE WAR AND THE MADNESS AND SET PALESTINE FREE!!!🇵🇸 My heart goes out to all of those suffering and I pray for peace and an end to all of your bloodshed and injustices.🙏🏾

R.I.P Paul Mills and all those who have lost their lives this week. My heartfelt condolences to the Bailey family on yet another passing.🙏🏾

Earthday Blessings to my firstborn blessing Queen Isis. Keep shining and being true to you. Love you!😍🖤💚

More Earthday love to fellow Scorpio Princess Nyah and Queen Bex Richardson. Sending nothing but love your way!😍

*And the work continues!😅 We will slip and slide throughout this ride but still we move!

**I love a tattoo and I’ve added a few more to the collection! The girls are looking pretty even if I do say so myself!😂😏😍 #TattooCute🪷

Go Where The Love Flows Freely, Stay Blessed & #CelebrateLife

 

♥ Originally posted back in January 2017. ♥

 

So we’re six days into 2017 and Nora’s prediction didn’t quite bear fruit – we’re still here, yay!! It’s a shame that within hours of the new year we were hit with how mad and sad the world can be with the nightclub shootings in Turkey, and so it continues. The world keeps turning and the beat goes on!

There are certain beats that will always be playing in life. I like to imagine it as our personal human playlist that we’re instilled with. There’s every type of beat going that pertains to making you a part of society; social, ethical, compassion, love, hate etc – it’s down to you how you turn on, tune in, drop out and tun’ up! We control the levels and more time we need to start hollering our own tune than remixing someone else’s.

I people watch but I don’t watch people and yes, there is a big difference! I love a bit of people watching – we’re all human (I think!) but boy do we come in a wide range and some folk, from their outside appearance alone, are fascinating creatures.

Obviously you can’t judge a book by its cover, but it does make you wonder sometimes. I don’t spend my whole life doing it but when I get the time to do so (like sitting in a doctors surgery for over an hour!), it’s hard not to take in those around you. That is the difference between the two: people watching is taking things in; watching people is taking things on.

I’ve never been one to watch people. It’s too much like hard work. I’m not interested in keeping up with the Joneses or the Karcrashians thank you all the same. Better yourself and your life for you. Admire and aspire, but when it’s all about impressing or outdoing the neighbours is it really worth all the energy?

There’s no shame in living within your means until you can afford to step up your game. No food in your fridge, in credit up to your eyeballs and can’t sleep at night but you’re rocking the latest designers and top of the range telly so you can keep up appearances. For who? Why does the opinion of others matter to the point of you making yourself miserable on the inside so that they can believe you’re something else on the outside?

People may not understand the way you choose to live your life or look down on you because it’s not how they believe you should live, but if it works for you and you’re not hurting anybody – especially yourself – then what the fuck has it got to do with anyone else?

I’ve had people question me in the past on how my relationship works and it works by focusing and watching us and not others, it’s as simple as that. Life is easier when you keep it real, set your levels and dance to your own beat. More folk should try it!

 

R.I.P Turkey 39, Jill Saward and all those who have passed away this week.

Don’t Watch – Do You!, Stay Blessed & #CelebrateLife